Subject: The Vampire Girl
Date: Sat, 10 Jan 1998 20:10:23 PST


What status are we to assign, as rational thinkers, to dreams?  Is our 
sleep a form of vigilance that occurs 'outside being'?  A meeting in a 
dream is a different kind of meeting altogether; with no sense of 
consequence do we approach or appropriate the 'Other' of a dream.  You 
may wish to argue that the other of a dream is our Self, or at least a 
creation of our Self.  But I choose to define being (or 'Dasein') as the 
ability to produce an effect.  And we are not producing an effect upon 
our Self, or in our realm, through the medium of our dream; rather, the 
dream is an event in itself, an event which produces 'beings' 
(sometimes) who extend their influence into the waking 'division' and 
act upon us an objective others.  Dreams are not a form of 
self-hypnosis, nor are they products of fantasizing ... dreams are not 
conscious products ... sometimes we even try to avoid them.  It has 
become something of a cliche to reflect upon the question of whether or 
not our "waking life" is our "true" life, or at least another life, 
fully as important and "substantial" as the present one, in which you 
are reading this post (or not), in the world or realm of dreams (see, 
for example, H. P. Lovecraft).  This notion or daydream serves, at the 
very least, to extend the boundaries of our conception of Being.

  ..........

Embracing a sweaty, feverish, and beautiful adolescent girl may not be 
the most unpleasant thing in the world -- but we would fail, in some 
way, to be struck by the underlying DISEASE, the CAUSE of that 
horrendous condition of languid throwing and seductiveness.  Her long 
dark hair, dishevelled and sticking to her forehead, would smell of the 
place in which she lies, all but helpless .... The heat of her body 
would make us, so tired!, long to embrace her ....

Clammy hands and lips, stretching to grasp and HOLD us ... her mouth 
finds a soft spot on our necks, as we give in ... the sin, imposed by 
society, of allowing her to SUCK US IN, and hold us, until all is 
INFINITELY REAL again ... it drives us onward -- towards, towards ... an 
explanation.  We stand before a mirror, or gaze up at one, and see how 
much stronger we are (a visual metaphor, brought on by our size) ... We 
sense damage, but it is not her torn hole, nor even her fatal disease 
... rather, it is our adequation ... our reliance upon WHAT WE KNOW, as 
residents of this world, no longer conscious of the violent cataclysm 
which threw us hither ... PSHAW!!! as opposed to the mild cataclysm of 
seduction.  Appropriation is the penetrating end of seduction ....

  ..........

Pleasant exhaustion:

It is easy to ignore the tail end of appropriation.  Our sense of life, 
of being-in-the-world, is derived from our own primal act(s) of 
appropriation, and we fail to sufficiently LAUD the beautiful EXHAUSTION 
at the end of Being.  This exhaustion is not death but UNDERSTANDING -- 
which is identical to the impossibility of continuing.  Being, which is 
our known life, need not be backed up by, and/or dependent upon, 
perpetuation of the Self.  I have no need, or SEE no need, to back up 
this assertion of mine.

A quiet and willing giving-over of the Self to death, read as 
'impossibility of continuing', is the "worldly" endpoint of being 
(Dasein), or the non-transcendent and hence PERMANENT impasse struck by 
a certain MODE of being, or 'living, thinking, and existing'.


Edward Moore
monsieurtexteEM-AT-hotmail.com


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