Subject: Re: your mail
Date: Wed, 19 Aug 1998 01:14:48 -0400 (EDT)


This is hopeless. I'm trying to see what the relation between memory
and dissimulation effects, rubs a-way and alters. If I was to take to
heart and to memorize in this sense (in the sense of breaking open a
path, inventing new trails, new rays...) then writing extends over an
institutional boundary to hide more than it shows for if it were
otherwise there would be no prompting of desire which in this case
would move from fullness to want. But why be hypothetical? wouldn't
this be experienced as a necessity, a fatality without recourse, a
straight line, a goal!? but already i'm getting all juiced up over a
word that makes me reach and give up. And when something is necessary,
it is also intoxicating, an obsessive repetition, a habit of drying hearts.

Ari 


--