File spoon-archives/bataille.archive/bataille_1999/bataille.9903, message 82


Date: Sat, 6 Mar 1999 15:33:16 -0500 (EST)
From: Marsha Faizi <mfaizi-AT-rbnet.com>
Subject: Re: our myth


Dear Donaldo,

I would respond to this but I am confused by it. I cannot see how Stacey's
Zamyatin post could have been hurtful to me. I don't feel hurt. I could not
see that it contained anything hurtful. 

Faizi




>> >You know how independent she says she is.
>>
>> Independence, for me, Ariosto, has been a forced issue. I did not set out
>> that way. Think that it did not hurt to get that way? It hurt plenty.
>
>Yes, and whether you know it or not, that Yevgeny Zamyatin post hurt you
too, so
>watch what you say in this second one okay?  You just put in more than a full
>day of work, you come home, do what you do, assert what must be asserted to
your
>awe full chagrin; to your exasperated (at times) even while infinite patience;
>cleaning up messes, addressing the obstinate shadows of dead animals,  to load
>up your email, travel a mountainous road through heresies; dodging military
>checkpoints of dogmatic inevitables and the self-depricating irony of loose
>gravel, only to find yourself mindlessly clutching at gawd knows what, but
>remembering to breathe as has been recommended by that prince of emptiness...
>what's his name... thus loosening your grip, putting all away, except for that
>pin prick there, and, ah, that's better isn't it?  You are hyperboreal again,
>the furthest reaches of your mind up on cold peaks in icy blue; trans formed.
>
>
>> >She doesn't need to be
>> >stroked Don and yet she can be such a cry baby,
>>
>> Yes, the blood drains from my face. There are times that I would love to be
>> stroked but I do know the price for that and I am not willing to pay it.
>
>The little shit is at it again and it's the same old shit.  Why does he
risk not
>risking so?  Why must you repeat yourself?  What is anybody getting out of your
>participation anyhow?  You have ways of soothing yourself.  You don't need
>this.  You don't need anybody.  You like your work.  That's enough, just
getting
>through one day, one night, and then the next.  There's no need for carnival,
>for sloppy suppers, spaghetti at the legion.  Your talk with Ed the super,
>Maggie the bag lady, Brick the dog, or that fritzy cat that's been hanging out
>lately are plenty to deal with.  They love you and they can't help loving you.
>You are a wonderful, right on person!  Nobody's more right on than you!  Why
>you've nailed all the nails in the star-spangled coffin of any mealy mouthed
>general that's ever come down the pike!
>
>
>> >not that a good cry is
>> >bad. She is getting it and she claims she doesn't just to get more.
>>
>> You want me to stop, Ariosto? I can stop and I can stop cold. Just like that
>> and, no matter how you might cry, as you cried for Lucio, I can stay
>> stopped. You want iciness again? You want dullness? You can have it. I can
>> promise you that. You may have your list precisely as I found it in
>> January--lifeless.
>
>So what's this?  What's the point?  You've been invited into this cold dead
>place, you bring your color, your questions and warmth, and for what?  Why were
>you attracted to the piss yellow light of this Ariosto character anyhow?  Damn
>it!  Why are you here?  You have better places to irritate, places where
>colonels have agendas you can drop in the mud and grind under your heal so they
>squeal and squeal.  That's entertainment!  That's the kind of push and shove
>you're looking for.  It signifies real movement doesn't it.  Reminds you not
>only that you have a job to do, if and when you choose to do it, and not
that it
>makes any gawd dim difference, but the path is solid, and that's what you like.
>You want the path of your phony enemies to be as solid as they can make them,
>and just so you can crumble that path in your fist from your formidable gut,
>promethian in its distinct but originary power!
>
>
>> >I have
>> >known women like that. Insatiable, always asking for more.
>>
>> I think that it is a lacking in you that you are so short-sighted. But that
>> is all right. Your short vision will serve you well.
>>
>> You want to be rid of me, you can be rid of me. Just like that.
>
>and me too Faizi; for what it's worth, me too.
>
>Donaldo
>
>> Faizi
>
>
>
>
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