Date: Sat, 6 Mar 1999 15:33:16 -0500 (EST) From: Marsha Faizi <mfaizi-AT-rbnet.com> Subject: Re: our myth Dear Donaldo, I would respond to this but I am confused by it. I cannot see how Stacey's Zamyatin post could have been hurtful to me. I don't feel hurt. I could not see that it contained anything hurtful. Faizi >> >You know how independent she says she is. >> >> Independence, for me, Ariosto, has been a forced issue. I did not set out >> that way. Think that it did not hurt to get that way? It hurt plenty. > >Yes, and whether you know it or not, that Yevgeny Zamyatin post hurt you too, so >watch what you say in this second one okay? You just put in more than a full >day of work, you come home, do what you do, assert what must be asserted to your >awe full chagrin; to your exasperated (at times) even while infinite patience; >cleaning up messes, addressing the obstinate shadows of dead animals, to load >up your email, travel a mountainous road through heresies; dodging military >checkpoints of dogmatic inevitables and the self-depricating irony of loose >gravel, only to find yourself mindlessly clutching at gawd knows what, but >remembering to breathe as has been recommended by that prince of emptiness... >what's his name... thus loosening your grip, putting all away, except for that >pin prick there, and, ah, that's better isn't it? You are hyperboreal again, >the furthest reaches of your mind up on cold peaks in icy blue; trans formed. > > >> >She doesn't need to be >> >stroked Don and yet she can be such a cry baby, >> >> Yes, the blood drains from my face. There are times that I would love to be >> stroked but I do know the price for that and I am not willing to pay it. > >The little shit is at it again and it's the same old shit. Why does he risk not >risking so? Why must you repeat yourself? What is anybody getting out of your >participation anyhow? You have ways of soothing yourself. You don't need >this. You don't need anybody. You like your work. That's enough, just getting >through one day, one night, and then the next. There's no need for carnival, >for sloppy suppers, spaghetti at the legion. Your talk with Ed the super, >Maggie the bag lady, Brick the dog, or that fritzy cat that's been hanging out >lately are plenty to deal with. They love you and they can't help loving you. >You are a wonderful, right on person! Nobody's more right on than you! Why >you've nailed all the nails in the star-spangled coffin of any mealy mouthed >general that's ever come down the pike! > > >> >not that a good cry is >> >bad. She is getting it and she claims she doesn't just to get more. >> >> You want me to stop, Ariosto? I can stop and I can stop cold. Just like that >> and, no matter how you might cry, as you cried for Lucio, I can stay >> stopped. You want iciness again? You want dullness? You can have it. I can >> promise you that. You may have your list precisely as I found it in >> January--lifeless. > >So what's this? What's the point? You've been invited into this cold dead >place, you bring your color, your questions and warmth, and for what? Why were >you attracted to the piss yellow light of this Ariosto character anyhow? Damn >it! Why are you here? You have better places to irritate, places where >colonels have agendas you can drop in the mud and grind under your heal so they >squeal and squeal. That's entertainment! That's the kind of push and shove >you're looking for. It signifies real movement doesn't it. Reminds you not >only that you have a job to do, if and when you choose to do it, and not that it >makes any gawd dim difference, but the path is solid, and that's what you like. >You want the path of your phony enemies to be as solid as they can make them, >and just so you can crumble that path in your fist from your formidable gut, >promethian in its distinct but originary power! > > >> >I have >> >known women like that. Insatiable, always asking for more. >> >> I think that it is a lacking in you that you are so short-sighted. But that >> is all right. Your short vision will serve you well. >> >> You want to be rid of me, you can be rid of me. Just like that. > >and me too Faizi; for what it's worth, me too. > >Donaldo > >> Faizi > > > > >
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