From: MFaizi5009-AT-aol.com
Date: Wed, 25 Aug 1999 20:30:39 EDT
Subject: Re: dis and dat


David Quinn wrote:


>  Marsha Faizi seems to be a woman who can leave her femininity
>  behind for extended periods of time, even though she clearly suffers for 
it.
>  
>  
>  David Quinn


I suffer in that I do not enjoy the benefits of my femininity.  There is no 
one who loves me.  I am not pampered.  I have no one to do my bidding.  I am 
not adored and revered and otherwise worshipped in the way that women are 
commonly adored and revered and otherwise worshipped for their femininity.

However, in the nine years that I have been left alone to raise my children 
and to maintain my home and to work, I have become accustomed to this lack of 
worshipful adoration.  Indeed, I would have trouble accepting that sort of 
admiration.  It is a womanly sort of admiration and it is demeaning; 
pathetic; significant of weakness.

Such love is repulsive.  I could not accept it.  It is unworthy of me.   

No man is worthy of me.
  
Suffering is nothing compared to the end of suffering.

Faizi