From: Ariosto Raggo <df803-AT-freenet.carleton.ca> Subject: Seriously now Date: Mon, 30 Aug 1999 03:54:18 -0400 (EDT) <smile> John, yes, you posted the story about your wife and the picture on the Heidegger list which is more realistic and reasonable than this one at times. So you have a wife eh. I don't, mostly it has been moving in with a girlfriend, always it has ended up in separation and gradual loss of contact except in one case, a friend now, she takes me unconditionally. I was packing today for a move into an apartment to get away from what I have called my cell, may be offline for a while soon. I am looking forward to my move. I found your comments on marriage interesting in spite of my cynicism which I share with so many people today. Back to the modeless mode, perhaps one could describe this back-and-forth swing as unconditional, groundless love for another no matter what she says or does. Well, as far as I'm concerned as an old friend now, sure, no mere casual relation, too much time has been invested to think that way; that's how I take Faizi. She is a poison and a cure to me that troubles my imagination with anguish. I gave her these written gifts and they lie there untouched as if the curse of the imagination were bound with them. These are a sword I mentioned, a wonderful black piece of cloth that has multiple properties and a bottle of occult pills from my shamanic pharmarcy with magical properties. One of the side, elliptical effects of these pills is that of a painful-pleasure(summeikton - Philebus 46a) , that's how I take Faizi. She doesn't care for these gifts, they lie. I will wrestle that shadow, for she is my stinging shadow, from month to month, that's how I take her. She sucks up the germinating seeds of my poetry she just doesn't want to admit my formidable spell, that's how I take her. I'm driving her crazy, she is becoming winged before my fingertips each time I play the key-board of nomadic, ecstatic imagination on fire with sharp reason polishing the blank page into the brilliance of a fictive, fake philosopher's stone; a simulacra where I become while gazing, in a certain mood swing and attunement, appearance without reality, and I also become shadow. This written stone has been, already is, and will be the gift that I ultimately value for her. It's not up for discussion with realists who care nothing for the traversal of fantasy, royal road of the falling of the scales, the shock of the Real. Cliche pills, my ass. John, she is so simple, you are gathering that by now, her ignorance is boundless, infinite! Like the serious sounding realists she has no appreciation for the pseudo-immortality I am offering as she becomes and elevating list spiritual, virtual entity. You know, she is right, we fire up this list together, you are becoming an integral part of that fire in your own way, don't let her upset you on my behalf, I can *take* care of her, no worries on my end. Canadians are the masters of satire, this is our rugged northern gift of laughter, you are good at it. Kierkegaard was good to, and Cervantes Don Quixote, well, that was one of Nietzsche's favorite books. I have a sense of why, remember that I pointed that what he valued ultimately was the mixture of the satyr and the god? I feel quixotic sometimes as if I were abandoning myself to a traversal of fantasy in a topsy-turvy reality but what a life lost to an orgy of books with cracked bindings like a raving God. In this faker's messiah medium I sprout wings that lighten me up, loosen my tongue to speak with habitual obscurity as if I were listening to the voice of birds rising from the ashes of the operation of reason, noise and nonsense invade without trouble my ability to read, to say something, and so I write and keep my silence.I am possesed to do this turn elsewhere like a maniac without a why, without purpose pursuing a useless rhetorical exercise cut off from opinion because unhinged from an ordinary use of the senses now out of order, inoperative in order to dissolve the mental blocks hindering the passage of writing finding its voice in the silence of periods (...) that are the term, the idea of good writing traveling with dialectics as its path breaking companion opening after traversing the fantasy of sense the intellectual cosmos (Plotinus I,3). Ariosto --
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