Date: Fri, 30 May 1997 07:30:59 -0400 (EDT) From: bhaatasari <gajjala+-AT-pitt.edu> Over space and time this moment i *refuse* to be read. the lines of my palm tell me things perhaps the lines of my jaatakam tell me things perhaps but by you i *refuse* to be read these alien words cannot convey your desire will interpret most definitely awry [that's not what i *meant* damn you!] i refuse refuse to be read by you! Yet i know i must write for you if i am to write at all to exist at all my words always thinking of you and what you will think of me but for the moment i *refuse* refuse REFUSE to be read by you the way you would like to read me just because it's easier for you within your way of thinking and feeling to read me like that. oh how i hate you for doing this to my word yet i shall come back again and again hoping to be understood Understood as even i sometimes don't hoping to spark just a little bit ... hoping that the signifiers i use will slip and trip your mind so that what i am trying to signify gets across to you someday? not always falling within the colonial desire always within the male desire exoticizing myself out of habit habit - formed the day i was born into what i was born.... where i was born... but today i take pleasure in refusing you. ____ Radhika - May 30th, 1997 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ http://www.pitt.edu/~gajjala/ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
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