Date: Sun, 5 Oct 1997 22:16:28 -0400 (EDT)
From: Cyberdiva <radhik-AT-bgnet.bgsu.edu>
Subject: sez the centipede to rabbit... 



Perhaps
because you were never
	afraid
to face the consequences of your action
- at least you
	did not
	let on...

although sometimes 
as i peered into you piercing eyes
behind the glasses
	and you smiffed a little and pushed them back
	straight on your nose
i thought i detected
a tremor

that you
	refused to let others see

You were always compelled to be brave

while
like a centipede in a ditch

i lay thinking very often
nervous
		entangled in my 
			own
		thoughts, doubts and
			concerns

You scampered along like a rabbit
with purpose

willing to accept consequences.

 Yet I know you well enough
(do I - at all - sometimes - often - i wonder...)

to have seen those 
doubts

almost growing up together
we talked a lot

	but there was so much unsaid...

still is.

Well, I am done counting my feet for the time being.

 [for the time being, i said - for the time being...
for my habit is to count feet and to get entangled...]

while I was busy trying to figure
out
which foot comes before which
(as if that mattered - ever - in the topsy-turvy sequence of life)

A child grew up

my own.

My life kept happening

while i watched as if in a dream

(as if that mattered - ever - in the topsy-turvy sequence of life)
While
I was counting, doubting
and questing
and you scampered on with what you knew you had to
do
...

finally i crawled out of the ditch and looked
at the world.

It doesn't look so scary  all the time
anymore

But it does...

With all my legs entangled and my
body weary and cramped
I will crawl onward
knowing
that our mission
in Iife 
(if you can call mine a mission, that is)
is the same.

Even as we try to reach it from
two different poles.

I have meditated in the ditch 
long enough
to know that the ditch 
does not protect anyone
from consequences.

As you scamper
on
with purpose

i only ask that you let me crawl 
behind 
at my own pace.

thinking, brooding, doubting

stumbling over my entangled
feet.

		R

 
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Radhika Gajjala
(Multimedia and the Internet)
Dept of Telecommunications
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Bowling Green State University,
Bowling Green OH 43403

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