Date: Mon, 17 Jul 2000 15:48:22 -0400
Subject: Re: (no subject)


what is "fiction"
what is "real"

            radheya is born but
un
born
for

kunti in her guilt
relinquished motherhood

for legitimate
woman
hood

in the service of a patriarchal legitimacy that
erases

radheya's reality and fiction

existence

true motherhood
is
scary

will fight injustice

motherhood thus constantly is re-
placed
by the mother's role

as in the name of the Father and the Son

mother's remain complicit

in forgetting,
dis-
membering
and not
re-membering....

our re- membering is thus waylayed
pushed aside
in to
virtual and imagined spaces

in our il
legitimacy
lies our painful honesty

durga and kali
scribing
outside
the lines
outside the pages


inbetween the cracks of conformity....

annapurna wrote:

> the new baby was named
> radheya
>
> which mother
> i wondered
> would choose to name her baby
> after an
> abandoned
> illegitimate tragic karna
> disowned by kunti
>  renamed 'of radha'
>
> groping for parts of me
> that dont exist
> because you werent there to see them
>
> our stories stay illegitimate
> sustained by memories
> and virtual spaces...
>
> as brothers fought
> wars
>  for their fathers' kingdoms-
> 'spare my sons' heartless kunti
> beseeched a
> twice disinherited radheya..
>
> in the silences of stories
> of kuntis who did not
> ask such things
> of their 'illegitimate' sons...
>
> we speak
> in illegitimate spaces..
> to legitimise ourselves...
>

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Radhika Gajjala
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