Date: Tue, 28 Nov 2000 15:49:25 +0600
From: radhika_gajjala <radhika-AT-cyberdiva.org>
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as an
asuya

grappled with issues of mind and body

overcoming asuyas of various kinds

		it was still her privileged location that allowed her to be
cloaked
veiled
by matrimony
heterosexual
perfection

	still
not
	perceived as deviant

from heterosexual norm
alities
							except through her mind
							expressed
							aloud
							once too often
							to be shut down
								often

her camoflauge
			was easy

Paathivrathyam was sacred.

				ekalavya however had no such 

					outer shell 

no guise but his "mild" demeanour

[not considered Masculine enough in places of Power, they say]

as he dove into
a hyper heterosexual capitalist
world of accumulation and competition

			"the age of internet darwinism"
				with its 
			"Survival of the fastest"

at the expense of the long-term
quick burn outs
short term fantasies

			when long long ago Dronaacharya had already removed 
			from him the means
			to be successful on his own terms

in the name of a Mainstream for which he was not deemed heir enough....

perhaps...

For it is the Arjunas that must be placed on pedestals
[birthing mis-understood Abhimanyus with barely learned 
survival skills

against his interest
and desire
pushed into war
lost in the padmavyuham...]

but whither Arjuna these days

and whither the song of reassurance for the confused elite?


									Xena watches Aries with 								no godly powers...



		as she reaches for more war paint
		lancome, este lauder, max factor

						ponders the pow(d)er puff girls...

Xena gazes....

where are the gods without their magic?


			Gabrielle the A(norexic)mazon queen(?) 
			fast losing weight
			to fit a vision as she fights

an aging Xena watches
the aging Aries
powerless
wondering if she should be envious of Gabriel's weightloss

			lifting a 10 pound weight with one hand
			reaching for chocolate comfort with another

		

but once again 

whose gaze is it anyway?



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Radhika Gajjala
http://www.cyberdiva.org
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"We do not invent our intellectual neighborhoods...;
we consciously build them" - Alexander and Mohanty (1997)