Date: Fri, 26 Oct 2001 18:22:17 -0400
From: radhika gajjala <radhika-AT-cyberdiva.org>
Subject: 


It has been a year now 
(an eternity)
this week

i fell silent
somewhere inbetween

inbetween

little personal triumphs
building some bridges
letting some walls 
be

wondering if there is any point

once again breaking my silence in spaces
periodically

wondering if there is a point

daring to dwell on my personal
heartbreaks
and
triumphs

as the world around me rocks
		[planescrashingintotowersmountainpeopleperishingamidstbombs
theworldengulfedincloudsofhateohwhatshallwedoforourchildrenandtheirs?]

i dare to brood on
my own....

speaking to you 
asking you why

as i asked you to wait
like the woman who went to shut the backdoor at the last minute
as the chariot of yama came to take her husband away -
saying wait a minute while i shut the door

wait a minute as i fix my life
you cant leave until then

but does the chariot with all its glory wait?
you were weary,
you had to leave.

but i continue to argue with you....
even as communication chanels with others fall away 

but what's the point?

how can i make them understand/

but does the chariot in all its glory wait?


as the world around me rocks
		[planescrashingintotowersmountainpeopleperishingamidstbombs
theworldengulfedincloudsofhateohwhatshallwedoforourchildrenandtheirs?]

those little personal struggles pale in light of so much that has happened since

and in a moment the child is grown and gone....

but does the chariot in all it dark glory wait?

as i dare to dwell on my personal....

[planescrashingintotowersmountainpeopleperishingamidstbombschildrencontinuet
ostarveaseverbeforetheworldengulfedincloudsofhateohwhatshallwedoforourchildr
enandtheirs?]

wondering if there is any point?


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Radhika Gajjala
Assistant Professor,
Dept of Interpersonal Communication/School of Communication Studies
tel - 372-0528
http://personal.bgsu.edu/~radhik
http://www.cyberdiva.org
http://lingua.utdallas.edu:7000/4425/
fax: 419-372-9841

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