Date: Tue, 03 Sep 2002 06:33:49 -0400
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From: "annapurna" <annapurna-AT-cyberdiva.org>
To: <sa-cyborgs-AT-lists.village.virginia.edu>
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Subject: Re: digging out hearts....
Date: Tue, 3 Sep 2002 09:52:22 +0530

like the centipede again
paralysed
wondering which leg moved first

making me feel
like the grasshopper that asked
the fatal question

even as black and white blur and merge
dont we teach our children
in voices filled with dire warning
and relentless threat
'dont tell lies'

[and to that i add
'dont lie to me']

not as an adult telling secrets
sometimes you have to be the child
who has to tell the truth...



 > I have dug out hearts
 >
 > my children's
 >
 > all my babies as I watch them grow older....
 >
 > not knowing what secrets to reveal
 >
 > and in revealing which heart i may
 >
 > break
 >
 > irretrievably
 >
 > made silent
 >
 > agonizing over the complexities
 >
 > that are so simple
 > to them
 >
 > and straightforward as anger or pleasure
 >
 > as black or white
 >
 > how do i tell them what secrets i know
 > that black was once white
 >
 > white was at times devious
 >
 > this intricate living on the edge that has trained me to hear and see
 > what
 > so few seem to acknowledge
 >
 > i am ever confused
 >
 > as ever confused
 >
 > when should i tell them these secrets
 > and
 >
 > risk breaking their faith
 > their hearts
 >
 >                          yet in the not telling who am i betraying
 >                          but them....
 >
 > again and again complicit with an adult world that watches in jaded
 > amusement as these children stumble and trip
 >
 > is it so wrong to reach out and give them a helping hand
 >
 > do i even know how?
 >
 >                  what right do i have to know these secrets
 >                          or to keep them
 >                                  or to tell them....
 >
 >
 > or do i just think i know
 >
 > perhaps it is they who are keeping the secret
 > to protect me....
 >
 >
 >
 >
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