Date: Tue, 03 Sep 2002 06:46:50 -0400 Subject: Re: it is not the centipede's confusion this time the centipede was young unsure the confusion is less unsure this time it is more a sure sadness that the honesty must be timed cheshire cats and madhatter may be unreal they may not be what they seem but for the time being they are alice's source of information s/he relies on this negotiated trust the queen of hearts must wait a while but this is not the centipede not in a ditch waiting to tell some secrets wondering when but knowing the secrets must be told and will for generations should not repeat cycles cycles cycles... there is much that has to be retrieved from the pieces of memory embedded in the untold.... At 06:33 AM 9/3/2002 -0400, you wrote: >From: "annapurna" <annapurna-AT-cyberdiva.org> >To: <sa-cyborgs-AT-lists.village.virginia.edu> >References: <5.1.1.6.0.20020902173807.0240cf78-AT-pop.cyberdiva.org> >Subject: Re: digging out hearts.... >Date: Tue, 3 Sep 2002 09:52:22 +0530 > >like the centipede again >paralysed >wondering which leg moved first > >making me feel >like the grasshopper that asked >the fatal question > >even as black and white blur and merge >dont we teach our children >in voices filled with dire warning >and relentless threat >'dont tell lies' > >[and to that i add >'dont lie to me'] > >not as an adult telling secrets >sometimes you have to be the child >who has to tell the truth... > > > > > I have dug out hearts > > > > my children's > > > > all my babies as I watch them grow older.... > > > > not knowing what secrets to reveal > > > > and in revealing which heart i may > > > > break > > > > irretrievably > > > > made silent > > > > agonizing over the complexities > > > > that are so simple > > to them > > > > and straightforward as anger or pleasure > > > > as black or white > > > > how do i tell them what secrets i know > > that black was once white > > > > white was at times devious > > > > this intricate living on the edge that has trained me to hear and see > > what > > so few seem to acknowledge > > > > i am ever confused > > > > as ever confused > > > > when should i tell them these secrets > > and > > > > risk breaking their faith > > their hearts > > > > yet in the not telling who am i betraying > > but them.... > > > > again and again complicit with an adult world that watches in jaded > > amusement as these children stumble and trip > > > > is it so wrong to reach out and give them a helping hand > > > > do i even know how? > > > > what right do i have to know these secrets > > or to keep them > > or to tell them.... > > > > > > or do i just think i know > > > > perhaps it is they who are keeping the secret > > to protect me.... > > > > > > > > > > _______________________ > > http://www.cyberdiva.org > > > > > > > > >
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