Date: Tue, 01 Jul 2003 08:31:10 -0400
Subject: peter pan, wendy and tinkerbell


peter pan got married finally
but
he watched and scrutinized and
gazed
at

her

grimaced often in dissatisfaction as she stumbled over
his ideal of perfection

in being the ideal Modern mate

                                 [[ the idea of course was that *she* fell 
short

                                         never he
                                 for he was Peter Pan]]

You talk too much he said

Modern mates speak up

she said

very puzzled, trying to understand his displeasure

because after all, she was only trying to please him by speaking up

and then she tried

an
other
perfection

the Traditional mate

but that did not work either
because her goal was only to please him

not to re
cover her voice(s)
under the proud guidance and scrutiny of Peter Pan the great....
as he yet again set the conditions under which she would
have
voice
be an agent

                         Peter Pan observed tinkerbell and wendy and 
wondered how they did it.

they pleased him well no doubt....

he took his wife to tinkerbell and asked her if she would teach her

tinkerbell laughed
her tinkerly laugh
                         winked at her well-laid out bottles of fairy dust

[[[look! under the label it says what kind of eating disorder it contains

fairy dust makes you disappear - sure I can give her some

but the rest you'll have to do yourself....

                 tinker bell flew away before Peter Pan could look closely 
enough to see
the depletion of the object of his fantasy

she stopped laughing when she was far enough

as she tucked away a jutting out rib and looked for a different bottle of 
fairy dust in the store

a brand that would hide a little better the skull that was her face...

                 Peter Pan sauntered along to Wendy then as she toiled over 
bottles of instant masalas

trying to whip up an image of motherly perfection

[[or so he thought]]

and he expressed a desire to drop off his wife

so she could be delivered
new and improved

at his doorstep

                                 Wendy turned around and snarled at him

told him to take a good look at the ingredients in what he thought were her 
instant (Modern) masalas

                 Peter Pan recoiled for the words and discourses and 
practices that popped out of those bottles were far too threatening to him

but wendy walked to his wife and offered these bottles to her

and told her that if she used them

                         she would have to take the risk of losing Peter 
Pan heaven.

the young woman pondered.....

wavering between negotiated complicity and negotiated resistance....

                                         tinker bell vanished and became a 
mirror image....

but the young woman is still unsure....



Radhika Gajjala
http://personal.bgsu.edu/~radhik

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