Date: Mon, 17 Jun 1996 01:33:09 -0700 (PDT) From: Alan Gullette <alang-AT-creative.net> Subject: Re: A SHORT WALK Not feeling like getting out just yet, I followed Stuart's instructions by taking a "virtual" walk (to defuse an overused term) and wound up in the Panhandle of Golden Gate Park. A place well-known to me, though arrived at (virtually) by a new route... At the bottom of my front step I turn left and head due west down the sidewalk running along the south side of McAllister Street. It is always necessary to keep one eye glued to the pavement, so often littered with dog offal. Next to the telephone poll at the corner of Lyon there is always an interesting pile of rubbish: old sofas, chairs, or mattresses, old clothes and useless trash. Unimpressed by the profferings, I turn left. Past the place where the guy works on his motorcycle and just before the AIDS hospice run by Mother Theresa's order, I cross the street, looking back into the carport where a statue of the Virgin surrounded by fresh flowers is enclosed by black wrought-iron bars. I turn right on Fulton, where I am always eager to see what I can see of the western sky over the hilltop of St. Ignatius. The sun is caught behind thick clouds or a lining of fog that swirls swiftly and steadily from the ocean. The traffic is light but I cross at Central, already constituting a right turn and taking me along a path I have only taken to retreive my parked truck. I cross, turn at Grove, turn at Masonic, which I know I will not be able to cross without the light. Above the street is a paved basketball court closed in chain-link fence, and the retaining wall has been painted with a detailed mural of many "peoples of color" (excluding white) apparently coexisting peacefully, with wistful eyes staring straight at you but peering into the future. Now I turn on Hayes, remembering the time I fell asleep on the 21 Hayes bus and passed my stop; when I was jolted awake, I jumped up and pulled the cord, getting out at the next stop but overlooking the fact that my baret was falling from my lap (yes, even more embarrassing, in retrospect, since my name is French but I can barely speak it). So I quickly cross the street, continue west until Ashberry, where I turn left. Here there is nothing distinct before my mind's eye, which feeds on my brain's eyes, which have never been loosed upon this particular block of my extended neighborhood. But I do see, before me, and across Fell, which I now approach, the Panhandle of Golden Gate Park. All at once the 60s flood before me with its hordes of unwashed hippies colliding aimlessly with the 90s deadheads with dreadlocks drumming dronefully near the children's playground. Now I have arrived somewhere quite nearby my usual haunts but only in vision, only as a haunt myself, and I wonder where my virtual version of Stuart's Walk has gotten me -- leading me aleatorically by an unknown path to a known area now known only because it is already well known. And I wonder -- not sure whether to turn left or right, since Ashberry is disrupted by the park before it reaches past Page to Haight (yes, "the" Haight) -- and being without a sidewalk or street, or further guidance from Stuart's nameless map, or meta-map, I wonder, Have I arrived anywhere? Have I been led to where I am supposed to "be"? What is the lesson? To venture past the known to the unknown? But have I already made that impossible by only travelling virtually, in imagination, or should this make it easier to leave memory behind? But far from being lost, I know exactly where I am heading as I curve my mental steps across the green grasses, between the towering eucalyptus trees, back up Masonic, crossing at Haight to pass sublimely into the fresh baked atmosphere of the Holey Bagel, where I can order virtually all the garlic bialies my nominally Gallic gullet can gulp... alang-AT-creative.net http://www.creative.net/~alang
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